Walking into the Unknown

unnamed-1Where am I? What is this place? Why was I sent here? Is this a punishment? These are all the questions I ask myself when I was sent into Conception Seminary College. When I first arrived at the Seminary I was surprised when I saw it in the “middle of nowhere.” I questioned everything about and even disliked it at first since I did not know anything about it. I then told myself, “Give it a bit more time.” One week passed and it felt worst. I was homesick. I missed my family, my friends and my culture. I felt like a wild animal that had just been placed in captivity. I wanted to run away and never come back. The week passed and we had our first day of reflection. I prayed all the day about it and slowly realized that God has chosen me to be here for a reason which is still unclear for me. I slowly began to change my perspective about this place and began to like it. I started to embrace the culture and everything was starting to flow nice and steadily.

Seven weeks have passed by since that experience and I now fully embrace being here. I have grown fond of this place and have learned a lot from the style of life the monks have. I have grown a lot in my spirituality and matured a lot more. The nature that surrounds this place has also helped me relax and enjoy it. I do miss my families and friends but I know I will get to see them eventually. I was blessed to be sent here and I look forward for the years to come.

About Cesar

Seminarian for Diocese of El Paso
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