Since, I was a little kid I have been interested in hearing God talk to me. I was so curious, when I saw many people go into the church, close their eyes, and move their lips. When I asked them what they were doing, they responded to me that they were praying at that moment. I did not understand how they were able to communicate with God and I wondered myself when I would achieve that. However, it was not easy for me because God never talked to me in the way I expected. Many times, I spent long hours before the tabernacle praying but I was not able to hear any word from God. I thought when I became an adult I would be able to hear God like others.
When I became a teenager, and a young adult, my problem did not change. I learned some popular prayers and even when I read the Bible I was not able to hear God’s voice in my life. Truly, I have experienced that God has given me everything which I have begged for in my prayer. However, my curiosity continued and I thought that I was going through dryness in my prayer. God had given me everything that I asked and I was constant in my prayer. During the last years, I talked with my spiritual directors about my dryness in my prayer. They gave me wonderful advice but my concern did not change.
Even, when I went to Creighton University, in Omaha, Nebraska, to do my ten weeks of spiritual formation, I expected that would be the best time to overcome my dryness in my prayer. Actually, I saw many guys at the chapel in front to the Blessed Sacrament. They were in deep prayer and suddenly they opened their eyes and immediately wrote in their journals about what God was saying to them. Honestly, I was a little frustrated because the ten weeks were over and I was not able to overcome my dryness in my prayer.
Fortunately, last summer I went to a special spiritual retreat. Clearly, the first days I was very skeptical but at the end I got what I have been waiting for. The retreat speaker said that God was talking to us in each good idea, thought or intention. He emphasized that our thoughts were the way God talks to us. He emphasized that God communicated with us through our mind and heart. That was wonderful for me because it was the answer that I have been waiting for a long time. Now I am able to discover the presence of God anywhere and anytime like St. Benedict in his seventh rule for monks described humility as “vigilance to God’s presence at all times and in all places.
Moreover the book of 1kings 19: 11-13 tells us about the Prophet Elijah’s experience. It is a wonderful encounter between the prophet Elijah and God at the cave. The Lord came and said: “Go outside and stand on the mountain before the Lord; the Lord will be passing by.” A strong and heavy wind was rending the mountains and crushing rocks, but the Lord was not in the wind, nor in the earthquake, nor in the fire. After the fire there was a tiny whispering sound and the Lord was there.
My invitation to you is to be faithful in prayer and be attentive to discover God’s presence in your life and particularly through his Word. I would like to share the words of Mother Teresa: “God has not called me to be successful; he has called me to be faithful” Our mission is to be faithful every day even if we are going through bad circumstances. God is talking through them. Be attentive to discover what the will of God is in your life.